Hello wonderful bloggies! So it turns out, when you take a day off for Memorial Day, it takes a week to catch up with things.
Since we last spoke, I started Bootcamp Tulsa. I have heard GREAT things about this program from lots of girls and now I know it's all true. My purchase came from Groupon, so it's only two weeks, but I just needed a jump-start booty kicking for my running training.
Unfortunately, after my first session on Thursday, I pretty much hated my life. This workout style is the antithesis of what motivates me. As I was telling my BFF, my entire childhood and growing up, I got very used to being the slowest, coming in last, and having to work twice as hard as everyone.
And I think it really became a mindset. Something I counted on.
When you factor in larger class sizes than I'm used to, timed drills, feeling like everyone who's already finished is watching me, not having as much rest time as the people who finish first -- not to mention 90-degree heat straight after a long day at work -- those have been my least favorite, least motivating factors. In the past, I have preferred more one-on-one interaction, everyone going at the same pace, etc. **
** Totally nothing against Bootcamp! Like my BFF, a lot of people are actually motivated by those factors, and lots of great success stories have been written through that program. I am all for the things they do and getting people accountable and moving. I think I will like it even better when I get to know these encouraging people better, too! **
So after my first session, I really, really wanted to never look back. If you really want to know how bad it was, let me give you a picture: after just the warm up with lots of up-downs, I felt like throwing up and a sweet older lady came to the side with me and poured cold water down my neck.
Yeah. It was like that.
I have never minded being slower (BTW, I really liked that they grouped us into "Fast, Faster, and Fastest" and never used the word "Slow") than others. But I am perfectly aware that my mindset isn't healthy, and that mindset won't get me through a half marathon in December.
So here goes Baby Steps toward a positive, healthy mindset. A mindset that doesn't freeze or over-analyze when other runners are around. A mindset that celebrates every inch of pavement crossed, every every drop of sweat that falls, and every major or minor finish line crossed.
A mindset that focuses on the beauty and strength of what God created a body to do.
"I got very used to being the slowest, coming in last, and having to work twice as hard as everyone."
ReplyDeleteI'm the same way. I was the fat kid that took forever to run the mile in P.E. No joke. This is my I'm such an aerobics/running freak.
Good job on the going back to class and changing your attitude. I know it would have been easier to just stay home and say you were too tired from work to go. No one would have doubted you. I get it. But I love that you are pushing yourself!
Keep up the great work!
I'm SO proud of you. There's nothing bad to be said. You are doing something, and most people do nothing. You rock.
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